M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
courts - sorry about your situation....i am wearing the same shoes as you just about a month ahead of you.
the pain and betrayal emotins will get less and less....it takes time. I know all too well the "little" things thinking back that were flat out lies, and i still get bent about them....but nothing i can do about the past, neither can you.
like coach said, whatever you decide going forward, take your time.
Gman
M-37 W-36 S-11, S-9, D-4 PA exposed 3/13/10 10/19/10 moving on... most up to date sit
This sucks, but it does help to have support and encouragement. H usually comes over on Wednesdays to see DD. He hasn't tried to contact me at all today. I'm thinking I might go into work for a couple of hrs just to get away from him.
Me: 34 H: 34 DD: 3 M: 8 yrs H moved out Oct. 2008, "not happy" "don't know what I want" "will always love you, but not in love with you" PA Bomb: April 5, 2010
Well, he's been over the last 2 days and I cannot even look in his direction or be in the same room with him. Right after DD & I ate dinner tonight, I left and went to work. Just came home around 9:45pm. No eye contact, no words, no anything.
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Me: 34 H: 34 DD: 3 M: 8 yrs H moved out Oct. 2008, "not happy" "don't know what I want" "will always love you, but not in love with you" PA Bomb: April 5, 2010
I feel: angry, betrayed, disgusted, resentful, regretful, nauseous, frustrated, confused, stupid, humiliated, hurt, used, conflicted but most of all I am pissed off! The more I think about it, the more angry I get. And the more I think, the more of those disgusting, hurtful images and thoughts pop into my head.
Honestly, I'm pissed that he hasn't said any kind of apology. Not that ANY words would make me feel better right now. It's just the point.
And I'm kinda like in shock - that it happened, that I allowed it to go on this long, hell...it's just a mess, bottom line.
Me: 34 H: 34 DD: 3 M: 8 yrs H moved out Oct. 2008, "not happy" "don't know what I want" "will always love you, but not in love with you" PA Bomb: April 5, 2010
