See... This is the thing. I was struggling to make the boundaries clear and hold fast to them and suddenly W says: I want to be respectful of your feelings and respectful of you. I don't want to push you.
This is the thing we said when we first got together. 'we can never break up because only with each other will be be sure such nice people are not taken advantage of'

There's a reason I have loved being married to her for so many years.

And why it hurts to contemplate NOT being married.

But I did it! I held to the boundaries and maintained my self respect. Failed at being upbeat and positive. But... one thing at a time!

no CAKE EATING!

But it was SO HARD to drive away from that forlorn figure, standing there in the parking lot crying. I'm very conditioned to take care of her (and vice versa).

Why o why did she have to be so weak as to fall for someone else AND DECIDE TO PURSUE IT!?!?

Gotta remember that it was her choice. And now... Focus on me being AMAZING!


Amybel

M: 46, WAW:47
M: 12y
T: 16y
EA with OW 2/26/10
Bomb 3/9 "in love w/ my ex"
MC 3/12
NC 3/17
Bomb 3/31 "D on April 9
Trial Sep 4/1
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