Just a little journal rant today.

Today xh called three times..metioned something about massage parlars in our neighborhood...I didnt respond.
I had left my makeup kit over last time I saw the kids and he mentioned if I would like to get it.
He put $$ in my account and was asking me to come over...WTH!!
He didnt say it right out but kept asking me to come over...I know exactly why...I said I was very busy with school and I didnt need my kit.

Im almost to the point at this moment where Im not having any feelings for him ...except "WHAT EVER"--
He said he wanted to take a vaction just for him in May or June...nice just when the kids are out of school.

UMMM....who is a teacher and out of school then...OW
I mentioned it and he said she was married and he didnt need a jealous husband after him...Maybe he did tone it down to just friends...still dont trust him....didnt stop him from being an A** to me just for his feelings for her.

She is the one I found out (through an email I found) that edged him on to locking me out of my own bedroom...so FO to him...and thanks for the $$$

Guess I am still disgusted by the whole thing.
No way in h I want to be "used" by him.... should have kept the $$$ for the oil girl at the massage parlor!

(still no mention of us together...Wish this God moment would hurry up)


M 36/ H 40
4 children
HMLC= 5/2009
sign d 3/2010 (to be final 6/10)
m16yrs/17yrs in Sept

resource for me:
http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=1964990&page=1