how do i keep my hope alive?

[trytryagain]

i told him i was sorry he'd had such a rough time at work and that i appreciated that he would continue with the financial support. i just don't know where the heck that money is going to come from, i know he doesn't have a dime in savings, unless his parents are going to support him for a while. he's helping me cover my rent, not to mention his own rent, a car payment, insurance, student loans, vet bills, and the money he gives me each month for our line of credit loan and visa card. since we don't have anything legal and signed in place, should i move to sign the agreement now to cover my bases? i have his email that says he would continue to make the payments, and i don't want to kick him while he's down, but he asked me to sign the damn thing last week anyway and then up and quit his job today, and i really don't know how on earth he plans to keep supporting himself, let alone helping me out, without a job lined up. deep breaths, deep breaths.

this is one of the things we CONSTANTLY struggled with during our M. i am uptight and panicky about finances. i get it from my mother. i have tried to let things start sliding off my back more often, but i am a big time saver and H is a big time spender and we were always butting heads about that. so for me to not flip out on him in an email is a 180 for me. i was understanding and calm. but there is a storm a'brewin inside.

i have only been to one IC session since my H moved out. it was helpful but not to a point where i felt any real relief or clarity. i was out of town for a while and couldn't get away from work this past week so this friday was the only time i could get to see her in a few weeks. i'm looking forward to it. she's also a yoga instructor and ends each session with a brief meditation, which i really need. especially right now.

i see what you're saying about his IC. i know they are paid to listen, but they are also trained to offer insight and sometimes even solutions or ways out of the problem. otherwise, why would anyone go?