how do i keep my hope alive?

[trytryagain]

distancing really hasn't helped. my H was much more receptive when we were in closer contact with one another, but even the kind words i've sent his way as of lately have only been met with short replies. i think his distance is a coping mechanism, his way of healing and accepting this is over. more time and distance will only widen the gap between us now.

i could certainly ask him about a retro weekend or a counseling session or two. maybe it would turn things around and you're right, the worst he could do is say no. but i feel like he already knows where i stand. i've already told him that i forgive him and that i do not think poorly of him. i've told him that we could try counseling and see where it leads. i've wiped away his tears and told him i love him and that i'm so sorry for the hurt i've caused him.

i would never demand that chance from him...but sitting back and waiting for him to come to me has been ineffective so far.