Journaling: I just feel like screaming right now. I want to say to him - you are BROKEN - very, very broken. He's so focused on what's wrong with me (BTW MOST of which occurred 12 YEARS ago)
He looks outside of himself for validation, he blames others when he fails, he's a very bad winner (in your face type of reactions), he's passive aggressive, he has no moral high ground at all, he lies, he hides his emotions, he's dependent on others for his happiness in all ways, he lacks self control.
What is it that I want to save here? I guess I just never wanted to say I had gotten divorced. He will just go on looking for others to make him happy. That's why he can't be alone, he's jumping from woman to woman looking for that soul mate that will "complete" him - and he doesn't see that only HE can complete himself.
Do I really want to continue this? I just don't know anymore. I'm fighting for something that maybe is just smoke and mirrors.
