Thanks for checkin on me Wild and Eric- I am doing very well, people at work are seeing the Happy Jasper again- they even ask me what's up...I know that it's not all me...it's a combination of detaching, seeing a new and exciting life, and being inspired by someone whom has shown me a new way of looking at life...
I am very concerned that I am no longer concerned w/ what happens w/ W. I have read other people say that there is a real danger in detaching too much...I feel like I may be getting close to that line.
I mentioned this morning about W's text message last night...I did experience some anxiety over it, but spoke w/ some friends at work and was able to not feed into things by replying.
I believe the text was brilliant on her part- a ploy to spark curiosity- vague enough to mean just about anything...I view it as complete manipulation- one friend even said it was psychological warfare on W's part.
I do love her, but I do not respect her for what she'd doing, and truthfully, I don't know that I can see myself going back to anything w/ her.
It is soon, my new attitude is too young to truly guage anything on...funny that even still I am able to be rational about things...the detaching and removing myself from the drama and not acting on impulse has allowed me this opportunity.
I've been angry, sad, and crushed for about 7 months now- I never thought i'd see the other side, but it is there, even if my original goal has not been, nor ever may be realized.
I see clearly, the mistakes I made in my R/M- NEVER succomb to schedules and routine- if you do double up on communication-
For the first time GAL is effortless...
I know I'm still on the rollercoaster, b/c I'm still M...so I will not think this feeling will ever go away.
