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[awest1217]

Having a rough night. My friends just had their second baby (we had our first together, got married a year exactly apart, bought our houses the same month) and all I have done is cry. I am so happy for them, but it reminds me about how the plan was for me to be having a baby right now. I remember how special it was when we had S and how in love I was...now it is all gone. I miss my family and having that special connection with someone. I am very lonely and sad today. I know I will be alright soon, but it is so hard to deal with.

On a fun note, S was up when I got the news that the new little boy was born and I just started to cry. He asked why and I said I missed being loved and he said "I will give you love" and he gave me a hug. He is so sweet! I love him so much and have no idea what I would do without him. Now on to a long night because S hasn't slept the last two nights due to coughing and congestion.