Calling all affair annihilators & boundary setters

[courts0818]

Feeling miserable. I hate this time of night. DD is in bed and the house seems so quiet and lonely.

So, H came home. I couldn't even look in his direction. DD and I were eating dinner. He walked in and I got up, took my plate and sat in front of the computer to finish my dinner. When I finished, I left. That was around 6:30pm. I came back home at 8:00pm. I was feeling sick and I just wanted to get in my bed.

When I left at 6:30, H made some comment about me wanting to know the truth and now that I know it I won't talk to him about it. I just opened the door and walked out. I can't speak to him right now. At this very moment, I don't feel I will ever be able to get over this and love him again. I just sit and wonder how in the hell can ppl cheat. How can they live with themselves? He has been out of our house for 18 months and the bastard has probably been cheating the whole time. How can a person live a life like that? How can someone to do that to their spouse and young, innocent child? It's absolutely sick - especially the way he would act like everything was just fine with us when he was here. Miserable....