Thanks for the advice, all. I really do appreciate it. It IS easier when communication is done through email and/or text because then I can just ignore the things he brings up that get to me. Even when he sends an apology email or text, I will either send a reply that simply states "I know" or I don't reply at all. I am aware of how sorry and remorseful he says he is for all that has happened...I just do not wish to hear it anymore. I feel like I gave him more than enough chances to apologize or make it right, yet he chose to never take them, so yeah. I just don't want to hear it anymore.
Ugh. Anyway.
He sent me a text today asking if I believed life had a plan? Did I believe that everything happens for a reason? I answered back (probably shouldn't have) that I believe there are reasons why certain things happen, but I do not believe that life ever follows a plan. I asked why, and he responded that he was just wondering. That this is the kind of stuff that goes through his mind everyday. He wonders if any good will ever come out of this D. For me or for him. I did not respond to that.
It is good that neither one of us aren't at each other's throats anymore, hurting each other beyond repair...but no matter what, I still don't believe that any good comes from D.
(((Thanks, all)))
Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward. ~ Joseph Campbell
