I think I might be headed here...

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I know I should feel overjoyed that the plan is for H to move back home and we work on the marriage, but I just feel nervous and anxious. I'm afraid of saying or doing a wrong thing that makes him think "oh, I'm definitely better off staying away!" and I'm afraid of him treating me as poorly as he did for the few months before he moved out. I'm worried about letting my guard down and getting attached to the idea of him being my husband again. I'm afraid he's going to change the plan on me. I'm afraid of divorce, and I'm afraid of staying married, but I'm more afraid of staying married!

So, we're less than two months away from his lease being up (we will have been separated for a full year, he seemed to start coming around mid-February...) and seeing where things go from there.

Meanwhile, he's at my house cleaning my kitchen...