Just journaling here,

Sunday, my kids and I got up and did the Easter Bunny thing and skipped first service at church to which we normally go and went to second instead. My W goes to second service. D13 wanted to go to her youth group instead of the worship service, well about a minute after my D13 left in walks my W and she sat with me and my S9 for Easter Sunday Service. While it was not planned by her she did choose to sit with us. After the service we all walked out together and friends from church who had not spoke to my W in months started coming up to say hello.

I think this is important b/c we as the LBS have to make the road back an easy one to travel for the MLC/WAS. I am hoping that she understands that friends and family will accept her back if I do and that they will follow my lead as will my D13.

After church I took the kids home and my W and I met for Easter Lunch and to discuss the differences I had on the Legal Separation agreement. This did not go over so well and while there was no fighting or anything, the magic of Friday night was not present.

Last night, Monday, my W was supposed to come over after work to pick up S9 to go home with her to spend the night. We had spoken earlier in the day and she said she had been crying all day because of the discussion about the sep agreement on Sunday. We agreed to talk a little when she came to pick up S9. We sat in garage and had a beer for 1.5 hours talking, it was good but still she does not want to work on the M yet. It was late and she had not eaten and neither had the children. So I asked D13 if she minded eating dinner upstairs while Mom came in and ate. (D13 was very mature and said no problem). My W came in and I was able to whip up a great dinner for all of us in a matter of 30 minutes, this is one of my big changes I was able to demonstrate to her. My cooking skills were non existant before and was one of her marital complaints. After dinner my W and I went on the back patio and talked some more, she was there until 10 pm. No hugs or kisses but she wanted me to walk her out to the car. It was a great evening IMO.

Just watching and waiting now looking for more positives. It has taken 9 months and alot of mistakes on my part to get here. Still I get impatient but not like I used to and I never give up any progress I have made.


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Me49 XW49
M17 T19
S16 D20

Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.

~Jim Morrison