You really do need to educate yourself on the divorce laws of your state. Many attnys offer a free consult for informational purposes only. They will be able to explain to you the laws of your state, what is required of you and help you understand how assets are divided. If you do not like the attny you meet with, find another. You don't need to tell anybody you are seeing an attny as it is simply for informational purposes right now.
I am personally not a fan of mediation as most LBS are not detached enough to go through the process. IMO if divorce was not a joint decision then it is best to retain your own counsel and let them handle as much as possible so you can continue to work on you.
