The dreaded LIMBO

[4luv]

I am still recovering from all the foolishness but still GAL. I took son to take easter pics yesterday and son and I got some GREAT pics together. I can't believe he is about to me 1!

I ended up calling husband yesterday twice, once on his personal cell and once on his work cell. Luckily he didn't answer because the conversation that I wanted to have with him would not have been productive AT ALL. It was an impulse and I wanted to let out all that I have been holding in. In the end I spoke with MIL and told her how hurt by husband's actions. I just went in on ALL the FIRST holidays that husband missed with me and son including (mother's day, 4th of July, Thanksgiving, Christmas, Valentine's Day, and Easter). EVERY major holiday he spent with OW most likely (at least thanksgiving, christmas, and vday). MIL was saying how much her son was saying he enjoyed watching our son grow and being a dad. I told her, well, I can't tell now. He is missing out on a lot of moments with our son.

Anyway, just still upsets me that husband is avoiding me. Then husband emailed me this morning saying "Hey, what r u doing?" I responded "working." Then husband responded "ok...are there any other pics of son from Easter?" No response from me (I shouldn't have responded to the first email).

My MIL sent Easter pics of our son to husband yesterday but I showed her how to do it. I guess she told him that I showed her how to attach pictures on email.

I am still upset. I messed up by even acknowledging him with a phone call or email response but I HATE avoidance. I am confrontational but for the past year of DBing I have tried to avoid (as much as possible) the elephant in the room. Now I am just tired. I just want to put it all out there. I don't want any more "pretending." I want husband to STEP UP and confront me. I am venting and my dad has warned me to not respond to his emails anymore and that I called so do not call ANYMORE. My dad said that whoever makes the call is NOT the one in power. ARGGHHHH!!! Why can't he just say what happened...lets not pretend anymore and just say what this is....