I'm taking off my ring April 9

[AmyBel]

Here's the latest: she has published a google doc (shared online for the two of us) listing her topics to address during therapy on Wednesday.

I'm apprehensive about addressing several of them.

1. She wants to attend my graduation from grad school on May 16. Given how much she contributed to me getting this degree it seems wrong to deny that. But I really don't want her there to mess with my emotions. And if we are NOT MARRIED (but separated) she shouldn't be there. What is right and fair?

2. She wants to find a different couples therapist. I think the one we have has us pretty well figured out, but there might be a better one out there... Not sure how to respond. I have been saying: "I feel no need to switch but you have to want to be there. Let me know what you decide."

3. She's expecting to visit me at my internship for a couple of weekends coming up. I think that is an easy "no."

Sad today because my family who came for the memorial service have all dispersed. And here I am alone at home, without my wife and missing all the great things we shared.

And I'm so frustrated that I have to deal with this personality trait of fear of conflict. Wish there was a simple surgery that could remove it!