CLV, Thanks for the encouragement, I should actually have time today to be on the boards for sometime. I will drop down and check things out. Time and Patience is key in all this mess, can't stress that enough.
On Saturday after our Friday night "date", My D13 and myself went out to the Dept. Store where my W works part time and bought some shoes for D13 to wear to church. D13 still will not see nor talk to my W. My W did not know we were coming out and when she saw me her face lit up and I got a big smile. They were busy and I said I would talk to her later after she got off work. We did speak but she did go back in the "tunnel" slightly when we were talking but I expected it. Still this part is hard b/c you can not help but get your feelings involved.
I felt a little pain on Saturday night as I was getting the kids Easter Baskets ready for the next morning. It passed within 20 minutes, it let me know I still care. I have been detatched for quite a while and have felt indifferent for over a month. Bitter/sweet in a way, I realized that my feelings for her are still there just below the surface and that they still can be tapped into, just now I know how to handle these feelings.
More to come about Sunday and brunch with her and then last night, the positives in my sitch keep coming more in my next post.
Formerly "missherlove"
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Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.
