Thanks for all the support and replies everyone. You all make good points. GIMA, I agree with everything that you wrote and that book is on my list to read. I am working on changing the thoughts.
I had some good talks with my sister and a close friend yesterday. They have actually been pretty devastated by my sitch themselves. My sister said that she felt sad that my IC and the AD aren't working out for me...she knows what I've had to overcome to actually get help.
me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4 current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp .: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.