how do i keep my hope alive?

[trytryagain]

last night i went on one of the longest runs i've done...6 and a half miles! it was a beautiful run, and i did it in just under an hour and 20 minutes, which was a personal best for me. i wanted to quit about 5 blocks in, but i kept putting one foot in front of the other (and jamming out to lady gaga helped a lot, too!), and before i knew it, i was back home again.

i emailed my H yesterday to let him know what he owed me on the taxes. i asked him about his easter weekend and told him he was in my thoughts. i got very brief, business like responses. apparently, his puppy's jaw was dislocated over the weekend and he got into a fight with his mother on easter sunday, so i guess he is feeling like things continue to pile up on him. he seems so lost and unfeeling to me...i hardly even recognize him in his emails and my heart breaks that there is nothing i can do to help him.

my dad looked over our agreement last night and had some questions which i guess i'll have to ask my H about. i don't know if i should submit any changes to him or to his lawyer, but...i guess i'll figure it out.

has anyone seen the movie "precious"? i watched that last night after my run and it certainly made me feel like other people out there have it worse than me...