Can I just say right now in this moment... I HATE my H
ugghhh... why is he so awful to me now? How does someone that used to love you so dearly now treat you like this and say the things they say?? You would think I had been messing around on him, spending all his money, treating his daughter like crap.... thats how I am treated... as if I wasnt the best wife I could be and loved him and my step daughter with all that I had... I know I am far from alone in this boat, but good greif! what is in the water that these spouses are drinking??
I did some things wrong in this marriage... or I can say I communicated wrong in this marriage.... but that does not warrant me being left with no warning and no attempts to solve issues! What is that??!!
The husband that I had that left for Iraq was AMAZING... I felt so safe and so loved... the one that came home.... completely different. Its like, thru his weight loss, old H left him one pound at a time or something! He sweated out old H and what was left was this SOB.... what is that??!!
Found out H wasted NO time getting the papers submitted for me to leave after our C appt... he went straight to work and filled them out and turned them in, within the hour. WOW...
He said some more selfish, rude, insensitive things to me today about not wanting to be with me... and basically not caring about how i feel about it cause he has to look out for himself... who is this man??
.... it sucks... i know i dont NEED him, i just want him... I know I can find happiness with someone else... I know that the good attributes that I do love about him, I can find in someone else... but its real hard to let go when you already made a life with someone and you are committed to them... but they are not... MAN! why does love have to be soooo difficult??
Me: 25 H:25 M: 2yrs T: 4yrs No Kids Bomb: 11 Feb 10 Newcomers Story
