Oh yeah - to show his state of mind, one of the things he mentioned is that he had a motorcycle with two seats. One was comfy with a back rest - and I have a bad back, but it wasn't stylish. The other was nice looking but not comfy. He didn't like that I always wanted the nice comfy one on there.
Yeah, I know it's weak, but the hopelessness is what makes me frightened right now. He doesn't think I can change. I know that's fog talking, but how do I get through? Do I do the GAL, 180 stuff, or something more drastic?