I don't have the knack for giving advice like you do. People respond to you so well! Look at your # of threads and posts. You have a lot to offer and I'm glad you take the time to follow my sitch!
My mom home schooled my sister who was having some learning difficulties. It was a big sacrifice for both of my parents. It takes a special person to tackle something like that. I know how hard it was for my parents and it took both of them.
I understand about the kids. That is my greatest fear, what S or D would do to them. It has probably held me back from doing what I need to do. I know you have guilt. Just remember, you didn't do this to them. You will be the one they look up to as time goes by. I wish I had some great words of wisdom but I don't. I do understand, though. You are in my prayers and I think you are a great person.