Moving on with my life #2

[Startingover2]

You know Gineen something was posted on your thread that is very true for me as well. I vent here. I put my thoughts out here. Way more than I tell my family or friends.

Exh never saw baby yesterday for Easter. He sent texts all day saying maybe later he will come and see her, but I knew he wouldn't. I actually did speak with him on the phone late afternoon and he was groggy sounding. How sad.

He sent a text today saying "I am so sorry about yesterday. I let you down again and I feel horrible". I didn't say anything. Knowing exh he came back to reality this morning before work and realized he missed another time with his baby because he is too weak to fight his urges. No point in me saying anything to him about it. He knows what needs to be done, and in his own timing he will or he won't get the help he needs. My life is still marching on with or without him in baby's life. Yes, it makes me sad. Watching someone you care about with an addiction is tough. Watching my daughter's father be this way even with her and praying he doesn't disappoint her over and over.

He is sick. He needs help. If I keep my boundaries up with him and not let him close there is nothing to be angry or pissed off about with him anymore. Just sadness for a life that is wasting away. I just need to make sure he doesn't infect baby's life.