Invinceable

[mishka422]

Mom is doing much better. Thank you all for your kind thoughts and prayers. They believe that they have most of the SSRI's out of her system and that she won't have any more episodes as long as she doesn't take them again. She's going to have to learn to live with the pain of the neuropathy unfortunately.

I'm learning to accept Gabe's help. I don't let him help with my mundane daily tasks but I do let him help with the big things. There is a fine line to walk in order to make sure that I don't develop any dependency on him again. It's hard, trust me! He was standing in the kitchen with me while I was making dinner last night, asking if I needed help chopping anything. I kept having flashes of our M life. Of him in the kitchen, offering to help, of him walking in and wrapping his arms around me from behind, kissing me on the neck while he did so. I had to shake the image out of my head several times and just take a deep breath and continue on like he wasn't there. This is growing more difficult by the day, but I'll manage.

He called his mom yesterday and she wanted to talk to me. She thanked me for giving her son a roof over his head and told me that she warned him that he had better get his crap together ASAP and get a place of his own and stop getting involved with women all together. I just laughed and told her that was a good idea.

It's official guys....I'm insane, but completely fortunate to have help when it was most needed. Now, to figure out how to get him out of my house in a timely fashion.