P, i dont like when they say its abusive, because i dont always see it that way. they think that he likes me wanting and begging and pleading for him. that everytime i get the stregnth to have NC and when i begin to feel better, he finds a way to get in touch with me, and question if he is just bringing me down. I am not sure, bc i often see it as NC works and he thinks of me when we dont communicate at all. Or does he just want me around for a friend? or is it baby steps?
I may be taking a break from this site... not sure its for me. I dont think H is ever coming back and doesnt want to make it work and i am spending too much time on here and trying to figure him out and how to make myself GAL. I appreciate all the words of wisdom, just need a break from being a divorcee.
