Yes... the card totally confused me but I am trying not to read to much into it. That is the H that I always knew... not this crazy wacko who leaves his wife pregnant! like i said we can have onversation and i can see that when i am myself and nice he is himself, and as soon as I get crazy he backs off and becomes mean and quiet!
A - the month before he left, he was under tremendous stress with school, bombed a really important cumulative exam that could have basically made the entire 2 years in the program null, he was given the opportunity to retake it and did extremely well the 2nd tim (also in december). in those weeks, he lost weight, became withdrawn, and i just thought it was because of school, not sure if that was the case. initially when he dropped the bomb on me and said ILYBINILWY, he said it was school and his studying that put the distance between us and that school completely stress him out. It is a full time clinical program, with a full work load of classes and papers and exams and it is extremely intense. Not making excuses for him, but when he was accepted into the program, they have a counselor speak with each prospective student to let them know how it may affect his life. He came home that day and said how lucky he was to have me support him and he wasnt worried because nothing could ever break us. he said he told the counselor this too, bc they do ask if you have support at home. they warned him.
i still think regardless of if he has OW or MLC or whatever the story maybe, this all stemmed from depression and stress. even our families agree that he is not himself, depressed now and it is changing his whole life. I suggested he go back to counseling for himself. He is very down on himself lately bc i will not let him be in the baby's life planning now, if he can not be my spouse. he said he feels ike the worlds worst father...
i am not feeling bad for him. he doesnt seem to feel bad for me!
