God Bless you...from your post you are sounding GREAT!
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one of the things that I have realized weeks ago is that my old marriage is dead
This is good. When I refer to my wife as being dead I am talking about the M and about some of the great qualities that she had or still has but are covered with her MLC crisis. I do not believe that she as a person has died but our M and some of her quality no longer exist. But yes I still love her and still stand for my M.
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Yes, I know that if we do get into an argument at it turns out bad things could get way worse.
Hopefully you are not getting in R arguments since you should not be bring up your R. Right
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The hardest thing for anyone is to admit that they were wrong and to change what they have done.
yes hard especially for an MLCer but NOT impossible so keep up the hope.
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I know what I did wrong I am making my changes.
This is a good place to be right now...
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I have asked God to forgive me for my sins.
He is just and able to forgive us of all of our sins buddy.
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Do I still get feelings of guilt and sorrow? yes I'm human but at least I'm no longer dwelling on it. I'm not living in the past, just today. For the rest of my life today.
Another good place to be. You may find that the guilt and sorrow returns from time to time but DO NOT beat yourself up. Try thought stopping. Once the thought comes into your mind - change your thoughts to something positive. If you are feeling angry though find a way to let it out just not at her. Trust me I've made that mistake more than once.
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I'm growing for my children
and for yourself...
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because I want to be the supreme example for them.
and to yourself! And to other people who will look at you and say WOW - what a man of character!
You are doing really well man...really well.. Keep it up...
God Bless, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans