I gotta say, this whole not contacting her thing is pretty hard. I don't really even know what I would say to her at this point though, so I would probably just end up making a fool of myself again.
I'm really confused as to why shes pushing so hard for a divorce. She has said so many things that shows shes open to us working this out, but they are just words at this point, and she has shown no real interest in it actually happening.
I know I just have to give this time, and worry about myself... I KNOOOOOW!!
It's just hard.
Part of me wants to email her and ask her if we can give the whole "dating" thing another try at some point. I don't mean like next week or anything, but I just wanna throw it out there that even though I'm moving on, I'm still open to her and I trying again when we both feel the time is right.
Maybe the time will never be right.
Maybe I'm fooling myself.
Maybe it is totally over, and I just fail to see it.
Lotsa maybes here.
I need to get on with my life, leave her alone, give her space, and see what time brings. I know this.
