I am 100% sure of EA. The fact that she still swears that I was the only one back in Sept. to think that something was not right with her bringing her "friend" to the bar and other things after that. People in her family, brothers, BIL, and people at school that I know have voiced the same concerns, suspicions that I had.
I don't know how active it is right now. This morning she asked me how many times a week I check her phone. I told her I don't mess with it anymore since she lied about contact with OM before she knew I had looked at her phone and she erased calls and txt. Of course she said she has no idea what I'm talking about. They are just friends and she helps out at school because no one else will.
My W is a very hard worker. It is something I have always admired about her. I have told her this in the past and told her so Sat. I also told her she was the one to make the decision to not work on the R, not me. I know I have made mistakes but never thought of getting out of the M. It is up to her.
She hasn't said much more about things but was pretty pissy this morning. I'm sure she is conflicted. I never brought up the changes in me, I'm sure she has noticed. Is the conflict because of OM or just the way she says I treated her when I was depressed. I told her I understood and agreed with her that I wasn't always fun to be around. I did a lot of validating and agreeing with her but said it was her choice to want to split up.
I know I'm all over the place with my posts here. I'm at work trying to get all my thoughts out. I will try to get them in order so you guys can help me out better when I have more time. I am still suprisingly calm. Something has to give and, right now at least, I'm OK no matter what comes next. I'm not giving up by any means but I can't make her do anything she doesn't want to do or isn't ready to do. I accept that now.
