I too have finally accpeted that the women I fell in love with is dead. She died. I now must grieve and then move forward.
The key is to accept that the old M is really dead. Kaptuz - over. That does not mean that you cannot start a new M or R with your W but want you need to do is let her go. Let go of the damn leash. She knows you love her - trust me she does..right now she is not sure how she feel about you. So if you let go and let God you just may have an opportunity to win her back but no one except God know if that will happen.
Eric, one of the things that I have realized weeks ago is that my old marriage is dead. And why would I want to go back to it anyways? I would be crazy. I was misarable. Thinking my wife is dead on the other hand is tougher because we are getting along. Yes, I know that if we do get into an argument at it turns out bad things could get way worse. It has been my stand point since she left that I will make every effort for her to feel safe and comfortable in my house. The hardest thing for anyone is to admit that they were wrong and to change what they have done. I know what I did wrong I am making my changes. I have asked God to forgive me for my sins. Do I still get feelings of guilt and sorrow? yes I'm human but at least I'm no longer dwelling on it. I'm not living in the past, just today. For the rest of my life today.
Gods plan for me is one where I'll never be able to see the whole picture. But with faith in him I know that I'll be more open to the nudges, hints, and glimpses he sends my way.
I'm growing for my children because I want to be the supreme example for them. I want them to know about my mistakes and what do to to prevent them.
Aces.....
I like all this empty space because i can now type out things that are important.
Like: D7 S2 starting swimming lessons on 3/30
"Readily will I display the intestinal fortidue required to fight on..."
