How do I act?

[Surviving03]

yeah... I know I will be alright... just gotta get thru these ups and downs... I kinda plan on going completely out of sight out of mind when I leave here... delete him off FB, so I dont know what he is doing... I am going to wait on him to file so I can just sit back and wait (unless I decide to file) but I have no reason to talk to him or contact him... my plan is to move in with my parents until my stuff arrives and my car which will take 2-3 months... and then move in with my sister in Kansas City. She just bought a house and will be living alone so she is eager to rent me a room.

I want to go back to school I think... Not sure how I will pay for it, or how I will do clinicals and have a job (I want to go back to be a radiology tech and then specialize either in MRI or ultrasound) I already have a bachelors degree so I dont qualify for very much financial aid. I have never been able to get a job with my current degree (psychology & criminal justice) I graduated 3 years ago... since moving around with the military I never got into a career, but now my ideas have changed as far as what Im interested in. I have worked in hospital settings for about 6 years now and really love it. Wish I would have figured that out in 2003 when I went the college the first time! lol But Im still young, I can do it. We will see...

I am ready to get out of here, out of this limbo... not sure how eager I will feel when the day finally arrives that I get on an airplane... I might even be on the plane with H, since he is waiting to go on his leave until I leave he will prob try to take the same flight I am on... which isnt too bad since I really could use help with this dog... but still, its awkward. will be an awkward goodbye... oh well, i will worry about that when the time comes...

I am going to keep posting, it really helps... I need the reassurance and support from you all so thank you for that! I wish all of you great happiness and luck in your situations!