How do I act?

[Surviving03]

So... we had the appt, I didnt do any talking, just some head nodding or head shaking. C said to H basically that he thinks H is doing this impulsively and that he has a hard time wrapping his brain around the fact that we have only been married for 2 years, 7 months of which we were apart due to deployment, and H has already determined that our M is failing. But said to H that if this is really what he wants and is not willing to commit to the M then he will write up the letter to send me home. C asked H if he is having any second thoughts... H said no, and he honestly doesnt think he will change his mind. I just looked on, didnt mumble a word. So the letter is being written. Paperwork will start routing and I will be out of here in a couple of weeks.

I am devastated... but at the same time, my H has made it clear over and over that he isnt changing his mind...so I am kinda used to that and have let go of any chance of hope, which makes it a tiny bit easier... where as before, I had always felt there was hope so every time it got damaged it hurt like a fresh wound... but now its like whenever H says something hurtful or negative about our M, its like yeah I have heard that before.

This sucks...at a loss right now...