You just keep working on you and improving you. Become the man you always wanted to be - instead of the man you became.
You are the prize. Remember that. It's not about doing what you think she wants you to do, but rather doing what you want to do. Don't ever look at it as if you have to somehow prove something to her, or have to impress her, or anything to become what she wants. If that interests her, then she'll want to be with you. If it doesn't, then you're not the man for her.
The sooner you see this, the stronger you will be. I've discovered it's where we end up anyway if we do the right work. It would be nice to see you get there a lot earlier than I did.
MySitch Me-47 STBXW-41 D-5 S-8 ILYBNILWY-01/08 Want a D- 01/09 Physical Sep-01/10 D filed-06/10 Got 50% custody=09/11 Ride that wave!
I hear what you're saying steady. It's not going to be an easy journey, but I'm sure I'll be able to evaluate the sitch allot better once i return home.
She's been talking to me openly and honestly the past few days. i know it means very little, but it's been nice. we haven't talked like this in a long time. Most of it is her talking and me listening.
I told her that as much as it sucked, it was better she told me while I was gone. I told her it allowed me to handle it a way I may not have had I been home. I told her it allowed me to take a real good look inside me and start to become someone I want to be. I let her know that if there was any guilt for telling me over here to let it go, because I'm over it.
I'm headed down the road of becoming someone I wish I was years ago. maybe she see it and take the road with me, and maybe she wont. She noticed, so that means I must be doing something right for myself.
Nobody knows what the future will hold, but the future will be good one way or the other.
Married 18 Me 39 W 37 D 15 D 5 Divorce Filed 8 April 2010 Beginning of Reconcile 8 Sept
Just when you think things couldn't get any worse they do.
i woke up this morning to find out that my D is in Juvy for stealing my W car. My W found her at the McDonalds parking lot and she fled. She turned up hours later and my W pressed charges and had her go to Juvy.
One of our friends that my W had cast aside showed up to help her. The friend told her at least I'll be home in a week and she wont have to go through this alone. My W told her that i was the reason for the this because i never did anything before. What a crock of B.S.
My W called and spoke to me and said we went wrong somewhere. i didn't have the heart to tell her what she is doing caused this. everything was fine with my D until my W told her about us. they fought and fought and now this. However, she has the balls to blame me.
We talked again later and i asked her to do me favor and not try to blame me. She acted completely surprised and asked me what I was talking about. i told her that i was informed that she was trying to blame me for this. i said pointing fingers at anyone isn't going to change what she has done, but we can together change what she does from here.
I also found out that my W tried to blame my downfall over here on our friend. After my W told me she wanted a D i got depressed over here. Some time later a friend called and told me to cover my a$$ because my W was. i never told my wife I was told this, but she told the friend the other day that she caused me to go downhill for saying this to me.
My W doesn't know how to accept blame for anything she's doing. She keeps pointing fingers at me or everyone else. the only people that believe her are the ones that only have her side of the story and don't really know me. She's obviously feeding her C a load of crap as well.
i have so much to look forward to when i get home don't I. They really meant it when they said to believe nothing they say and 50 % of what they do.
Married 18 Me 39 W 37 D 15 D 5 Divorce Filed 8 April 2010 Beginning of Reconcile 8 Sept
Right now feel like the M stuff can take a back seat. that will work itself out one way or the other. My #1 priority is absolutely my D.
I hope my W is happy. She's so detached from reality that this is no doubt a consequence of that. This is how well she's done with me gone and out of the picture.
My children need me more than ever, and I don't plan to leave them once I return home. She can go if she has to, but I can't let anything like this happen again. This is what her selfishness has caused, and I won't stand for it.
Unfortunately, I'm leaving tonight but it's only to Kyrgistan. I'll be sitting there until Friday when i leave for the states. It's going to be a long 3 days ahead for me and my family.
keep us in your thoughts and prayers.
Married 18 Me 39 W 37 D 15 D 5 Divorce Filed 8 April 2010 Beginning of Reconcile 8 Sept
