Divorced, Dating, and Parenting

[~Sol]

Today I started my workout program. I go to the park and walked/jogged. That's it!! Actually, I am starting out slow, I went for half a mile and walked/jogged one lap around the walking trail. I am out of shape! I could barely breath as I jogged, and people were looking behind to see who was panting like a little girl - it was me! Well, it wasn't panting like a little girl, more like breathing hard and jogging slower than a snail's pace!

But I didn't give up, I walked till I caught my breath, then I jogged the rest of the way and made it to my car. I rested for a few minutes, stretched out my legs and ankles (yes, they hurt), and drank my water. I took my vitamin earlier to make sure my body can recover and heal when I sleep. When I got home, I could feel the pain in my thighs as I walked up the stairs - they are already sore! I bet tomorrow I will feel it more, but that's OK. It's been 2.5 years since my appendix surgery and in the past I could feel the inside stitches when I ran, but today I didn't feel anything in that area - so I am fully healed and now I don't have anymore excuses to not take care of business! I am overweight, my gut will show it and so will my thick neck and double chin, and my goal is to burn as much fat as I can and be able to do a 5K marathon in about a year.

When I don't feel like running, I will walk the distance - I need to keep persistent about this. I don't really have a support group or someone to cheer me on, so I need to simply motivate myself - not easy to do I know. But my health is what is important, it's time I took care of myself. It's all about the mind, body and spirit that we all need to improve upon, and it's part of the healing process I believe also. I wasn't in that good a shape during my marriage, and after the bomb, separation and divorce, I am finding that I need more healing to do. I'm in a better place, but I know I am not where I want to be and need to be - but finding the path to get there.