So, over the past week, I've moved back into the house, bought some things for the house, moved furniture around, cleaned it up, got new rugs, stuff like that. And involving the boys in purchacing all these things, asking what they like, etc. I did the baskets for Easter, set up an egg hunt in the house, etc.
I saw W yesterday, having dropped the boys off and picked them up while I did some shopping.
W came over today and we had a family Easter. Now keep in mind, she's been sick much of the week, and is getting used to her new apartment.
So at one point, she says - I wish there was some way we could work this out.
OK...
So we talked. Much of the same ground. And we discussed that we're going to put off signing the papers.
I'm not going to get excited about it, not even going to call it "second thoughts." She says she can't let go. Yeah, that's old news. She says that she thought she'd want to be out there, moving on, but she doesn't want to be with anyone else.
I asked her about OM, and she said she thought she was in love, but was just lonely, and that there's nothing there, though she doesn't expect me to trust her on that since she lied before.
She still says she loves me.
So, for the moment - we're putting it off. But we've been here before, and I'm not sure it means much.
So - yes - the big question you're all going to ask. What do I want? Yes, if it was workable, I'd work on putting it back together. I have no confidence though in anything other than, she's really sad right now and trying to cope with having moved out, and is feeling confused.
OK, my boys are asking to spend time with me, gotta go.
