embracing change

[flowmom]

Thanks for the replies everyone. After posting I went for a walk. At first I just repeated a mantra to calm myself. Then I allowed myself to think a bit. I realized that the real trigger for my upset feelings was H shouting at S this morning. It really disturbs me and the children. I've been known to raise my voice in frustration too, but it doesn't have the aggression behind it like when H does. Another trigger is that I am so tired from waking up early every single morning. I don't think that Zoloft is going to work for me because of that. Also, I haven't been good about making sure that I eat. After my walk I had a short nap that I would have loved to continue, but I got up and had coffee. I don't think that I'll feel more happy until my energy improves, and for that I'll need more sleep and being careful to eat more regularly.

PG and SR, thanks for the input on the procrastination. PG, it helps me to read more specifically about what using accountability as a tool would look like.