Moving on with my life #2

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I guess I should make myself clearer...Im not intending on going back to exh. Not at all. I would be lying if what he was saying and doing didn't make me sad. Flawed or not I married him..had a child with him. What he does will affect my daughter and I will protect her. Because of his supervised visits I do have to deal with exh more than most on these boards who just deal with their ex's during kid exchanges. Like my attorney said, I have a great thing going with exh now. He hasn't fought anything and is being rather transparent with his actions. I am not going to be some bit** and force his hand out of anger to change something as we all know there is no guarantees i will be able to prove his alcoholism. So, for me to keep my boundaries up and keep exh coming during his regular visits thats fine with me...I will still have alot of control of what happens with baby.

Yes, it makes me very sad. He was my husband and yes it was a very flawed marriage, but we were married. I don't like to see anyone struggle like exh is but the more knowledge I have the more I may have to use later.

Please believe me when I say that I am not taking what exh says seriously. At all. I know it will change like the wind. I am not sad from him cancelling his egg coloring date with baby...I half expected it. What makes it sad is she is 2 now and doesn't have a clue that daddy bailed on her..give her a couple more years and she will. Not sure how I will handle that then when he starts disappointing her. If its within his timeframe of visits there isn't much I can do. I guess I will cross that bridge when I get to it. It will be his own relationship with baby that he is destroying.

Anyway, brunch at my moms was fun. We hid eggs over and over for baby and she loved getting them. Got a few apologizing texts from exh saying his head still hurt and he would try and see her later. We shall see....again not holding my breath.

Ok, gotta hide all of this candy!