OK, so I took S to church and to an easter fair - got rained out but I felt better getting out.
got home, phone rang, I totally forgot to not answer - H ALWAYS calls my cell where I can see it's his number - but probably to throw me off called my home phone. Nobody clls my home phone except a few businesses so I didn't expect it to be H.
He threw me off again, saying he wanted to come over at 4:30 even though yesterday he had said he would come over at 1pm. I had felt angry when he didn't call by 1, but I stayed dark and just got on with things and had to explain to my son to my S daddy was "coming later" but as usual, I didn't know. THis happens every weekend.
I should have gotten right off the phone, I failed, sorry.
So when he said is 4:30 ok I calmly said it's not my preference but I can and that I would have to put S on tv for a few hours as I was counting on being free earlier. (I have been literally throwing up this weekend - my parents took S most of the day yesterday). He asked what my preference would be Isaid 3 or 3:30 and he said he couldn't do that.
I said, "OK, if you're not willing to help me it's fine we'll deal with it."
Another mistake.
H starts shouting - "well we all wish we could have things we don't have and if you're going to be hostile and have a pity party..."
Here we were again. So I said "you don't need to insult me."
H said, "there's no insults but if you're going to be..." and I hung up.
I txted and said 4:30 is fine I just wish he could understand how hard it is to take care of a little child when I'm sick.
Well, I will not do that again. Expect him to be reliable, concerned for his child.
2x4s expected - again, I messed up.
RR you are right, as hard as it is, I'll sleep at my neighbor's.
