Pretty low today and cried a bit. I've noticed that before the low hits I feel an uncomfortable numbness.
One trigger is the "holiday" weekend. It feels lonely when people are doing family stuff and a lot of my peeps are out of town. A lot of facilities and activities are closed. I've been struggling with being present with the children. I get exhausted from being the entertainment committee, especially when other children are not as available.
I'm sad for my DB friends who are hurting today. Trust seems like an insane proposition lately.
I have a lot to be grateful for, and a friend got me to laugh this morning. H has the kids for a few hours and I'm going to try to be good to myself now.
me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4 current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp .: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.
