Invinceable

[mishka422]

Sorry I've been away all. I have been dealing with more stuff with mom so haven't been able to think much about anything else.

There is no doubt in my mind that God put this situation with Gabe into motion so that I would have help with mom. He has picked her up off the floor at least 3 times since he's been here and helped get her in and out of bed, wheelchair, car numerous times. Yesterday morning was a breaking point though. She had to go to dialysis but she was confused. She didn't know who I was for a few minutes and kept saying all sorts of crazy things, seeing people that aren't there, having conversations with them and eating imaginary food and saying that it had no taste (um yeah...it's air!). She has never been altered like this and it completely freaked me out. I got her to dialysis with much help from Gabe and when she was done with her treatment I took her straight to the emergency room. It took 3 nurses and me to get her out of the car and into a wheelchair. It's the scariest thing I've ever seen. She has been admitted and they think she is having something called 'serotonin syndrome'. It's a buildup of SSRI's in her system because her kidney's can't filter them. She takes 3 different AD's but not for depression. They have peripheral functions and help with the neuropathy in her legs. It's really horrible and I hope to God that this is what is wrong because if it isn't then there are bigger problems.

That being said, I asked Gabe last night what happened with him and the broom to end their R. I wanted to hear his take on it. He claims that she has an extremely jealous nature and couldn't handle that he has a lot of female friends on FB. Now, I can tell you that he does have a lot of female friends, always has. I have seen his friend list and these are all women he went to high school with or played in the all-city band with. I know their names, he's mentioned them to me over the years while telling me stories from the past. I half believe him. I'm not convinced that is the whole story but I can believe that she was jealous that he was talking to them. Why wouldn't she be? That's how their R started. She was a 'friend'. They talked a lot about their personal lives and problems and it morphed into a full blown A. KARMA KARMA KARMA! It's all come back around to her. Like I said though, I'm 90% sure there is more to it than that. I can't imagine giving up a 3 year R with someone over petty jealousy. He says that she has had this problem the whole time, she doesn't like him talking to any woman other than her. Whatever. I'm pretty sure it's over for good though....she cut his phone off with no warning.

So, that is the nutiness that surrounds me. God help me.