I'm only two months into this and I don't think I have a lot of control over my emotions. I'm trying. I have to choose everyday to swallow my dignity and be happy with what I've got. I've been trying to look at him more like a roommate than my husband but its hard when I get such mixed signals from him. He's still having the affair but talks with me about buying more furniture for the house or planning what we're going to do with the landscaping this summer. Is just so confusing. Thanks for the tip Passenger... I'll try to do more smiling until it's not fake anymore!
When you are happy as an individual, you are in a better position to determine whether a partner enhances your happy life or weighs it down.
