Do you think you're focusing on all these details about what she's doing/done as a way to avoid having to deal with your own grief and sadness?
I understand what you are saying here, and I'm gonna ponder it. Right now it feels like the extra details are just fueling my grief, you know what I mean?
I thought I prepared myself for this week. I've filled my schedule up with activities. I took an Easter gig for this morn/afternoon. The money will be good, but right now the last thing I want to do is play music in front of people. It makes the emotions that much stronger.
The main thing last night, while I couldn't sleep, was this deep frustration that I was back to the self-pity and anger that I had towards the beginning of my sitch. I'm pouring it out here, as I just felt I needed to get it out.
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