Sorry you had to come across that stuff this weekend while you were already feeling down. I know it is not easy to find evidence that highlights the lies but it really is just additinal confirmation of what you already knew.
And no, you are not pathetic. You are walking a hard road right now, grieving the loss of your M, being a positive force for your kids despite your pain, and dealing with the fact that your W is still there which keeps you knee-deep in the lies.
I hope that you are able to find some peace of mind today.
