Stepping out and Stepping UP!

[cagzmom]

T-wanna know what is wierd. AND I am sure this will not sit kindly with some but here is where I am.. I have been realzing more and more that X is/was a liar. I DO NOT mean that harsh.. it is truth and it is ok to sit with. In a way it makes dealing with him (for now) easier because I just dont believe him... that keeps me from expecting ANYTHING.

The one thing that I am thinking about now is just my kids. Mostly d13. We had a good talk about the "dinner" thing and she was as shocked as I was. BUT SHE WAS VERY happy about it. And I felt a little hopeful. What I told her was this..
I think x (DAD) likes taht I dont' fight.. he doesn't like confrontation. (And she KNOWS this) so for now this is working. AND because it makes you (d13) happy I am cool with it. BUT i DO NOT expect that it means anythign more then we are getting along in this stage of divorce... and thats it. I do NOT think he means anything more by it... I also told her that I dont necessarily trust her dad.... not being mean.. and she got it. 100%.


He has lied so much to me, to my kids, his family that it is kinda fact. I do think it made her.. hmm kinda sad that his intentions were "nothing more then what it was,"

It is sad.. every kid wishes and hopes.. Shoot how many of us have been that way. But a GOOD FRIEND here on the board reminded me to get out of the FAIRY TALE and move forward. That word was very helpful and timely and good.

So - I move forward. Man it has been hard...

HAPPY EASTER to all!!