The dreaded LIMBO

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thx jasper. you are right. Mdoodles, I checked out your thread but will have to finish reading it later...very interesting (OW def. sounds crazy).

Allen, I checked out that website and its very shocking. Husband never outwardly said he was sociopathic (i dont think he knows what that is or even the term) but he has said:

1. He thinks life is a game and he must win. He uses people as he pieces to the game of life. He admitted that this was sick.

2. He manipulates people.

This was sooo alarming when I read on the website that the main goal for sociopaths is to 'win'.

All of this research though doesn't make me feel any better. Actually makes me feel sad that there is no hope for my husband ever stopping his behavior. I still have not received any contact from him and although I AM NOT going to answer or reply, it makes me feel worst that he is having his little pleasant weekend with the OW now. They have probably made up by now, he has promised her the world, and now that he probably knows that this was the last straw for me he can just cut his loses with me and move on to his backup plan and be with the OW. I know this is mind-reading but its the only reason I could come up with for why he hasn't even thought about the turmoil and pain that phone call from her must have caused me.

I will snap out of this eventually. I hate that I feel like this right now. He wasn't really in my thoughts, I felt like I was in control of me, and now I am inside on a Sat. night thinking about him and what he is doing with her. I just feel like I lost (in my heart) but my logical self tells me that it is his lost. Now I have to get my heart to match my mind :-/