I guess it's nice to know that I'm not alone, but at the same time, I feel so bad that there are so many other people out there that are suffering because of this crap.

I'm trying really hard to take care of myself. I'm doing things that I like doing but at the same time, I don't want to push him away. Is it possible to have a balance or do I just do whatever?
Every time we're apart, I suspect he's with her. It kills me. I want to be strong, but it's tough.

Thank you for the advice jasper... I will try the NC thing before I call it quits for good. I've got to be ready to leave and I don't think I'm there yet. I don't want to be there, but sometimes I feel closer to it than staying. I guess I'm just hoping we won't have to get to that.

I did hear a good quote today... "Pain beats out regret every day of the week and twice on Sunday."

When you are happy as an individual, you are in a better position to determine whether a partner enhances your happy life or weighs it down.