Maybe I wrote something wrong; she isn't very religious. She is more cultural than relgious. That was one of our issues (cultural religion over religion). With that, she isn't irreligious either, and as she has come to challenge her cultural beliefs, her understanding has grown or disappeared, depending on her own personal values. She has said that my best admission was to our divorce mediator. Until then, she thought I wasn't serious about stopping. Mind you, yesterday she said I wasn't serious either despite me having talked to my IC and agreeing to get into the addictions clinic at our hospital.
Her feeling disbelief in my changes is hard to deal with, but I can (I think!). It is her actions I struggle with. Getting in touch with a person about divorcing and remarrying yesterday was a good example of what I mean. Threatening to "leave me with the kids and go off on her own" is another she used yesterday.
What is true? What is threat? What to do first?
I desperately wish she'd come back from her walk (5 hrs so far) and have her just hug me.
