Glad to hear from you OTMT.
Don't stop posting.
I think, a well written heart felt letter to your W may help substantially.

I mean she is still here, right? Hurt but here

Do not give up She needs to see you fight for her.
Now more than ever

M38, H37
S3, S7
Together 15 yrs
Married 8 yrs
Bomb July 2008
Inhouse separation
"I hate you" "We are over" (too many times to count)
Reconciled Sept 2009 (still worth it)