Okay, so just another post to kind of clarify. Yes, I suppose my focus has shifted more back to my H (I have caught myself stepping back into role as "wife" a little bit a couple times and have to be aware not to do that). BUT a lot of my turmoil now is actually within me. I am at that LBS point I never thought I would reach. Yes, I have been standing for my marriage and now I am seeing positives but NOW I am realizing how very much I have changed in the past year or so and how far behind my H is. I have matured a great deal - he has gone back to his teenage years. So if he "comes back", I realize how very difficult it will be and that kind of scares me.
My priorities, my goals, have changed so much. I want the man I am married to to be chasing after those same goals. I wonder if my H ever will . . .
