Stepping out and Stepping UP!

[cagzmom]

more strange twist...
so x showed up for d13 softball game. didn't know if he would because of his work dealings. anyway.. he called a couple of times from the field.. he couldn't see our team wanted to make sure he was at the rest place... (left messages on my phone.. I was on another call)

Anyway - he was standing by my car when I parked. I tried to take to long.. but he waited.. then he walked with me rather then ahead (and yes in the past few years since he left that was the story.. or I would be trying to keep up wiht him.. I dont do that anymore). So we get to the bleachers... you would THINK that he would get his own place to sit.. but he doesnt he WAITS for ME to sit down and sits right beside me WIERD moment #2,

So - this is where it is wierd. I am NOT angry at all..so I am nice. and we can talk.. so he converses.. i converse. JUST WIERD. I dont have any real boundary with it cause I am ok. (trying to be honest with myself.) but i really am.

So the game is done.. he hangs out which again is WIERD... but we all walk to the car and d13 and I leave. Then last night he comes to get d13. He was early.. but it was ok cause she is on spring break and I was home.

HEre is where it is wierdly normal.. but wierd. (Sorry dont know what other word to use..) IT was BEAUTIFUL yesterday.. I had been out all day - and mowed and stuff.. so we (D13 and I) were in the back. 2 of d13's friends showed up unexpected so they were playing volleyball and laughing and such.. so x comes to the backyard...

I offer a beer to him.. he excepts. (This is normal).. BUT he is in NO HURRY to leave. D13 is happy happy hanging with friends.. I say X minutes.. she is like ok cool.. Then everyone gets ready to roll.

When x is getting ready to leave with d13.. he says "Hey Cagzmom you want to come with us to BWW to get some wings?" D13 was right in front of me and I was like "HUH?" .. I said jokingly "you paying..?" he was "Sure"... and so I said "hmm self do you want to.. " and then said Yes.

So that was the FIRST time since Sept. 2007 that we have done ANYTHING like that. (i remember the last time because it was for D13 bday.. DISASTER!! oh my!!) anyway.. just so wierd.

HE.. is wierd. I dont try and figure him out and I KNOW that it menas nothing.. but it is so strange to me.

I feel like i have betrayed some of my friends and family who have walked with me through this. I think they would get mad adn I dont want to deal with thier wrath.. this is just such a strange twist.

HE supposedly does have a gf. But she lives about 40 min. away.. and he doesnt see her. So i think she is just a "happy feel good" girl. You know one to stroke his ego when needed.

This is just strange and new territory for me.

He would feel comfortable around ANYONE.. He is arrogant. (BUT you would never know it.. cause he is that good at being a liar). I just dont know this is strange.

I did text my C.. asked him to give me a call if he could.. just dont want to spiral BUT I THINK I am ok.

DOnt know..
PLease chime in if you have any thoughts.

This is weird.

me