While I'd hoped it would be a great day but it turned out to be a mixed day. DD was a bit sensitive this morning, just on the verge of crying for no reason. I packed up some snacks for the drive, some water, first-aid type kit with basic meds etc, switched the seat from the car to the truck and left home at 9AM. Go to the gas station to fill up before heading down the fwy and DD starts wailing as I'm trying to clean the windows from the outside. She wants me to sit inside with her. I explain I'm just right outside etc but she wasn't listening. I left her crying while I quickly finished up. Then hugged her again...she was out of control with the crying. She's been like that a lot where she follows me room to room and can't be by herself for even a couple of minutes.
Anyway, we had another hour worth of fwy driving ahead of us so once we got out of town I pulled off into a scenic lookout area, we fed the birds, took a few pics and back on the fwy. We made it to Legoland around 10:15AM. We went on a few rides then had lunch. The place was packed! every ride had a 45min to 1hr wait. DD was tired but soldiered on wanting to keep trying different rides etc. Plus my back started killing me holding DD in the lines for 15-20mins at a time since she was tired of standing. But she was having a blast so I kept going.
I had several weak moments throughout the day where I missed W by myside. I felt incomplete, I looked at all the other young families I was the only one without a W or so it seemed. Then saw a few hot moms (like my W) and I really missed holding her hands or putting my arms around her back etc not that my W is very touchy feely but I am lol
A couple of times DD said 'we should bring mommy here' because she was having fun on the rides and even said that it was better than Disneyland.
So finally at 4PM we decided to head back. Traffic was kinda bad but DD fell asleep. Then just before getting home I decided to pick up dinner on the way...bad idea! DD threw such a fit about me waking her up I almost lost it. Even when I picked her up to carry her into the store she started kicking me etc which she's never done before and I had to had a talk with her which made her go from being fussy to just plain sad and crying...saying she wanted mommy. Ordered the food, then waited while holding DD the whole time and rubbing her back, she'd finally calmed down. Go the food, came home and realized I dropped my $200 sunglasses somewhere between the store and the truck. Called the store, nope they don't have it...ugh! not a good ending to a pretty fun day.
Then at home DD was still upset and said she missed mommy...I sometimes just want to give up. She was playing with her food after she'd said she was hungry so I told her to stop playing with her food and eat...more tears, more crying, more of I miss mommy. Anyway, then she was OK after a bit and wanted to watch a cartoon, she loves Caillou. Then it was time for her to get ready and go to bed...
In a way I'm proud of myself that I stepped out of my comfort zone to take her out to Legoland by myself for the whole day. Other than a few rough moments it was a good fun day for her. I hope one day she can remember the fun things we did together.
Me: 35|WAW: 38|D: 6yo | http://tinyurl.com/2dxx7m6 Feb 2006, left, came back in two weeks Aug 2006, left again Apr 2007, filed for divorce Dec 2007, reunited Mar 2010, moved out, filed again
